firecracker_7

Hey Jealousy

Thu, 13 Aug 2009 17:14:09 GMT

Grr.
I don't like this femme bot.
just sayin'.

ROAR back off bitch!!!!!!

:]

new hair doooo

Sun, 09 Aug 2009 03:40:16 GMT

in Memories

Fri, 17 Jul 2009 21:55:46 GMT

"Think Of You"

It's one hundred and nine degrees in this crowded room
No room to breathe with walls as cold as a gallery
This is no place for me
Such hard faces in smoke
The smell lingers in my clothes
It's a bad night to be alone
But that's the way it goes

And I think of you whenever life gets me down
I think of you whenever you're not around
And you rest your bones
Somewhere far from my house
Yeah, but you still pull me home

I thought I had it figured out in a brand new life
With a great big house
And green initials on the towels
I should be happy now
Well, you got yourself a family
And you planted roots down by the sea
I saw you once on the street
You didn't notice me

But I think of you whenever life gets me down
I think of you whenever you're not around
You rest your bones
Somewhere far from my house
Yeah, but you still pull me home

Just to put your mind at ease
You don't owe me anything
You paid me well in memories

And I think of you whenever life gets me down
I think of you whenever you're not around
And you rest your bones
Somewhere far from my house
Yeah, but you still pull me home
You still pull me home
You still pull me home

loving this song :P

What a sunshiney Day

Thu, 25 Jun 2009 15:39:24 GMT

It's been a fantastic Day!!! Really!
Mailed out the package to Chessy
[the bestie]
Went grocery shopping
even though,
all we needed was bread, milk, and water
haha!
and I walked/jogged 2 miles :]

Feelin' good

<3sunshine out

Addicted.

Thu, 11 Jun 2009 01:49:56 GMT

to two things, Deviant art and So You Think You Can Dance!

ohh snap.

sunshineOUT

fuck off family.

Thu, 04 Jun 2009 18:15:02 GMT

I can't help but just laugh.
they think because they say "we don't approve of ____"
I won't do ____
fuck that.
this is my life
love me unconditionally or not
see if i care.
I can make it on my own.

American Idol

Wed, 20 May 2009 00:52:51 GMT

So I Love Adam. I think he's driven, I think he knows who he is as an artist, and I think he'll go far with his career.
Don't hate.
Just my opinion :D

GO ADAM!

sunnyboi out!

Pictures

Sun, 17 May 2009 21:17:42 GMT

I feel like I need some new pictures up, of my new hair doo :D

silly bitch

my beautiful hair stylist :D

:-P

swimsuit

[sunnyboi out]

STEP OFF!!!!!

Wed, 13 May 2009 11:39:01 GMT

I'm gay. Get over it already! It's been 4 years since I came out, cut me some fucking slack already.

FUCK YOU
[sunshineoutie]

Fuck this ish

Mon, 11 May 2009 09:27:19 GMT

yeah. I assume from tie title of this post, you have already intelligently guessed my mood. It's not a great one, that's for damn sure. I must be a glutton for punishment. It amazes me how I can so openly feel for someone, and be so easily shot down, or pushed aside. It's as if my feelings are nonexistent in her eyes, or they at least do not matter. So here's the skinny, the 411, another brief look into my life: I had plans with Rachael tonight. I was supposed to come to her place, spend the night with her "camping" in her yard under the stars. This sounded wonderful, apart from the never ending stream of rain today. I text Rachael, and asked her if she wanted to go out to the bar and have a few drinks first, she said yes. Now, I knew - from being told a few nights before - that she was seeing another girl. Rach text me out of nowhere and asked if it was ok if this girl met us out at the bar, because they just needed to talk for a bit about something, apparently they were no longer casually dating. So this girl, who's name I don't know[lets call her Jane], comes out to the bar, mind you, we'd only been there long enough to have one drink together at this point. I went outside to have a smoke with my friends, and to be out of the way for the important conversation Rach and Jane needed to have. I came back in the bar, did a few shots, went back out, Rach and Jane were still talking. I did this for a while, an hour....hour and a half...and while coming back inside from yet another smoke I spot Rach kissing Jane's neck. They didn't see me, seeing them. That sucked, considerably. I did three more shots (which by the by, were blowjobs. heh) standing right behind them, unnoticed. I went back outside, chainsmoked. A friend (who knew what was going on) came over to me to tell me that not only were they kissing, but Rach was gently caressing Jane's face. Brilliant. The "Divas After Dark" show started, I was watching with my friends, on the opposite side of the bar from Rach and Jane. I happened to glance up at the bar, and noticed Rach and Jane were no longer sitting there, I scanned the crowd, negative. I scanned outside on the back deck, negative. I text Rach and asked simply "where are you?" which took her nearly 30 minutes to reply to. I finally got a message back saying "on state street, I'll be right back". Around 2:30 I decided I wanted to leave, and still hadn't seen Rach (mind you, the show started at 11ish and ran about an hour, and she disappeared sometime during the show). I decided to just leave, fuck it. What was I hanging around for? Someone who clearly didn't want to be with me tonight? I didn't deserve to be treated that way. A good friend, Valerie, and I decided to leave the bar early. Guess who parked by Valerie's car? Jane. Guess who was in the car with Jane, in the dark corner of the parking lot - Rach. Guess who got glared at, and then ignored by Jane and Rach, ME. Sweeet deal. Valerie and I took her car to Walmart to get some inexpensive Mom's day gifts for my Mom and Grams. Then I got in my car, and drove an hour back home (here, at grams) I got in around 4 am. I can't get Rachael off my mind, and it pisses me off. She called me, though I didn't answer, I didn't hear the phone ring. Thought about calling her back....thought about not being angry with Rachael...came to my senses. I don't deserve that shit. I just don't.

whatever
sunshine(yeah, right)out.

ohhh humpday...

Thu, 30 Apr 2009 21:10:28 GMT

the day went as follows...

got up 15 minutes late...
...from the time I was supposed to leave the house.
dressed/brushed teeth/did hair/got things together/left in 6 minutes
drove an hour to binghamton

stopped by mom's house to pick up my two new tires I needed to have put on to pass inspection.
they didnt both fit in my trunk, so one wound up in the back seat.
back seat got covered in grass/mud/water/nasty stuffs. fml.

picked up connie, left for the garage. called to let them know I was running late.

got to the garage, on time. (shocked)
gave them my keys, and told them where the tires were, and waited for 15 minutes in the sun.
they still hadn't gotten started, so connie and I walked down the road to get some lunch, and kill some time.

walked back to the garage after 40 minutes, and was greeted with "there you are! you ran off on me!"
and an annoyed expression.
followed by "I can't put the tires you brought on the car, they're illegal - and it wont pass inspection."
fml.

called mom.
mom called randy.
randy called the garage and yelled at the man.
the man came out side and told connie and me to "just leave"
I said hold on - how much are tires?
"$90....each."
fml

called mom again.
mom told me to get the tires, and the inspection - but not the oil change (that I also needed)
I went in and told the man to slap two new tires on it, and do the inspection
(been there about an hour before they had even done something with my car at this point in time)

sat out in the sun for another hour before the work was finished.
got a sunburn.
paid the man $215 for the services
fml

left the garage, headed to PA to get my SS card from dad's.
had dad yell at me over:
money
my cats
money
my mother
money
my lack of a job
money
........did i mention money?

got the SS card, left dad's.
went to mom's.
had a [much needed/deserved] cig.
got "fake" yelled at about the cats.

left for the DMV
already had the forms (filled out and all)
went to the counter to get a number
got yelled at by two other people waiting at the DMV
waited in line for 20 minutes,
only to find out, I could have just taken a number
fml.

finished reregistering my car
$48.50
more money, sweet.

left the DMV
headed back to mom's to drop off the car
sunburn started to HURT
got to mom's.

grams called mom's house wanting to know why I was not home yet
texted a friend, never got a response
left to drive back to elmira.

stopped at the store to get aloe for sunburn
got called a "fucking dyke" for locking my car?
looked around the store for aloe
dressed like a damn idiot.
[they didn't have any]
fml

stopped by the gas station to check for aloe
they didn't have any
fml (again)

gave up
drove to grams house
was greeted by super hot house
and nothing to eat
fml.

just one of those days...

s.u.n.s.h.i.n.e.o.u.t.

Brilliant!

Mon, 27 Apr 2009 03:55:07 GMT

today was totally gorgeous!
it hit a wonderful [and welcome] 89*
:D
on top of that,
it is my crazy granny toes' 72nd birthday!
&& I feel so blessed to have her in my life
now,
and for as long as I get
she means the world to me!
also - BONUS
I took some amazing photo's today!
if you're interested in checking out my art work
go here
http://sunnnyboi.deviantart.com/

<3
sunshine[bright]out

A Day of Silence

Sat, 18 Apr 2009 04:13:29 GMT

<3 tuoenihsnus<------

S&T

Sat, 11 Apr 2009 21:56:08 GMT

When you're the best of friends
Having so much fun together
You're not even aware, you're such a funny pair
You're the best of friends

Life's a happy game
You could clown around forever
Neither one of you sees, your natural boundaries
Life's one happy game

If only the world wouldn't get in the way
If only people would just let you play
They say you're both being fools
You're breaking all the rules
They can't understand your magic wonderland
Hu-hu-hu

When you're the best of friends
Sharing all that you discover
When that moment has passed, will that friendship last?
Who can say if there's a way?
Oh I hope . . . I hope it never ends
'Cause you're the best of friends

sunshineout

webcam

Wed, 08 Apr 2009 07:50:21 GMT

so I purchased a web cam today- that doubles as a mic. It's been fun - I downloaded oovoo (which I just found out about today) and got to talk to turb on it - super awesome. Then I got to talk to friends on AIM with it. It's been a riot. I love it. And I can take these groovy pictures with it too - bonus.

oh you silly bitch. hehe.

shh. don't tell anyone about the big tits. I have a reputation to uphold. hahaha!

and we leave off with a bod shot. HAHA <3

--->sunshineout

Amazing.

Mon, 06 Apr 2009 03:52:37 GMT

I had the best weekend ever!

went shopping, hit on a total hottie,
chilled with my bestie
went out to the bar
got a little tipsy - only a little
;0]
danced my tushie off
Got to see some other really awesome friends I've missed
AHEM tommy <3
got my hairs cut :0P
smiled uncontrollably
and laughed so hard I thought I might pee.
tehee.
[[kidding on that last]]
but I did laugh lots lots lots lots lots

and took many delish. pics! ;0]
have a gander, if you dare...

haha this was our "dead like me" photoshoot.
I <3 my turb.

this is the tree outside my house.
chessy took the pic
I edited it.
<3
thats how friends do
hahaha

hair cut ^
I can finally style it again!
thank you jacki o!

ok so enough for now.

sunshine out <3

Interrogation Tapes : Niki Stevens

Fri, 03 Apr 2009 04:22:28 GMT

Meet the love of my life:

Thu, 02 Apr 2009 01:17:17 GMT

Hades <3

he is my little man tehee :D

And this little girl is Shane. <3 my little princess

RAY: Smile boy!!! .... HADES: mom, you are a true creeper.

isn't he the sweetest baby boy?

try not to fall in love

--->sunshineout

break me, shake me, hate me, take me over

Wed, 01 Apr 2009 20:43:41 GMT

so I was in a somewhat epic battle yesterday afternoon. I was sitting on the couch in the living room, blogging, minding my own business - when all of a sudden I felt something on my toes...I didn't think much of it, but glanced down to make sure it was my jamie pants....TOTALLY wasn't. All I saw out of the corner of my eye is some little black something crawling across my toes! I JUMPED off the couch, shook the unnamed bug off my foot, and ran away. About midrun I became paranoid that it was on/in my pants, so I dropped them to the ground, before realizing I had nothing else on but a t'shirt. Well shit. Now my heart is pounding, my pants are on the ground - not me, the mystery bug is nowhere to be found, and I'm showing the neighbors (through our open window) my jayjay (vagina)!! I then ran all the way to the back of the house to grab a pair of shorts, and when I returned I began my search for the mystery bug. I tore the entire couch apart, cushions were flying across the room...nothing. I flipped the coffee table, nothing hiding under that. I searched the whole damn living room, kitchen, and dining room before I stopped. The little shit did NOT want to be discovered. So I vacuumed the entire room, and cleaned the rest of the house and settled back down.

Much much later, about midnight, 1 am ish - I was relaxing in the black rocker, and I happened to glance down at my thigh, and I'll be damned!! There it was again! I shot out of the chair - *no screaming this time, grams was sleeping!*- and spun the chair around to face the light. I found the little bugger, who now looked suspicisouly like a spider!! Yikes! I flicked him to the ground to get a better look at him....and it was a damn ant. FML. AN ANT!?!?!? REALLY!?!? ALL THAT WORK and nudity FOR A DAMN ANT!!!

ugh. again, I say....FML. hehe

--->sunshineout

Stupid Economy

Tue, 31 Mar 2009 21:03:18 GMT

UGh. I hate that for the first time, I've been actively looking for a job for [literally] months, and I can't find one! I've applied through career builder, at the mall, at various stores/fast food places (even though thats gross) and I've even looked into working online from home. I haven't applied to any at home jobs though, because I'd be too scared that its a scam. Anyone know of any places hiring?

FML.

I mean, you can only live off your savings for so long...

sunshineout

girl how ya shake it gotta playa like whoah

Tue, 31 Mar 2009 04:29:19 GMT

total sexy stud? or complete dud?

s u n s h i n e o u t

Lovers & Friends

Mon, 30 Mar 2009 20:47:29 GMT

So I've been a bit confused lately.
I really like Holly Deux.
And for the first time its not I like her looks, then get to know her.
I genuinely adore her for who she is, and looks are in a close second.
Don't get me wrong, I think she's incredibly sexy (tehee)
But she's the first girl I've liked for who she is
before I hopped in bed with her.
Not to mention the long drive I have to even see her.
So when we hang out, I have a blast, and I feel like she does too.
But for some reason I just can't read her - which is never a problem for me.
I usually "get" women.
Just not Holly....

She acts like she likes me when I'm around her, and that's not so confusing.
But when we talk on the phone/computer she just seems SO uninterested.
Help! I have no idea what to think.

but as an exciting side note, we had our first kiss this past friday - it was pretty damn sexy.

but really, any advice out there?sunshine out

I've got the breath of a last cigarette on my teeth

Thu, 26 Mar 2009 15:24:37 GMT

So today I decided to drag....random, but very funny.

Check out some pics! :D

So there they are. TEHEE. Like? dislike?
do I care?
NAH.

(sunshine out)

beautiful artwork

Thu, 26 Mar 2009 11:21:12 GMT

thanks to clare bear I have this amazing picture, however - we have no idea who to credit for the work! anyony know this artist?

&& I love this ^ picture, because it reminds me of my Grandpa (may he RIP) <3

feed yo brainsss my children. FEED THEM! hehe.
<3 sunshine outtie

It's never good to blog when bored..

Thu, 26 Mar 2009 09:48:15 GMT

because you'll end up with like 20 posts in one damn night, its really quite ridic.
yet here I am, bored as fuckk and blogging.
Not only on my LJ
but also on my blogger. heh.
double the boredom, double the blogs!
:D

just sayin'....

so here's some funny pictures.

so here's the story, I met this girl outside [[Merlins]] one night, right?
She wanted a cigatette.
She said she would be an ostrich for me, if I gave her a cig. haha.
These pictures are the result...

How do you think she did? not sure?
Well here's a picture to compare....

:D so that's all really. hehe. I randomly found the pics of the above girl and thought it would make a funny blog ;)

s.u.n.s.h.i.n.e.o.u.t.